2018, I am simply grateful.

This year has been one of constant change.

In January, I made it my aim to get back into an artistic practice with zero excuses. Instead of getting distracted by house cleaning and Netflix, I decided to use any free moment to enter the studio. It was difficult, but one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

By March, I had found a new direction for the work. It all comes from the need for this inner self study,that I find difficult to speak about in words. 

This seed of metaphysical inquiry was planted in me long ago as a child and continues to evolve. The work I created this year dealt with owning early impressions of religion and belief. My aim was to make contact and peace with those ideals, that had been deeply impressed upon me. I’m still exploring this forgotten land, but I’m also moving gradually into Book II. What happens next? It is my hope that you will continue on this journey with me. 

May brought a big opportunity. I was invited to show my work with three other established artists here in Sacramento. Together we constructed a pop up gallery to view on the Sac Open Studios Tour. It was such a good intention to follow. I had not worked with other artists so intensely since  school. We all worked together diligently with respect, and spoke about our common nostalgia. We also sold a good amount of work, and had a great party. For the first time in years, I felt like myself again. 

Below are some photos from the show that took place in September. I just love these ladies!

October brought more changes. At the beginning of the month, I was offered a new position (day job), where I’d been applying for years. I graciously accepted and began to plan an exit from my part time position.

I quickly learned that transitions are difficult, and many are not supportive of change. What is that about? Why can’t we lift each other up more often? I feel this is an important step in growth, and something I take very seriously.  

On that note, a long time friendship I had with someone also ended abruptly. It was clear there was nothing I could do to try and save it. I had given it my best effort, but it was done. Life was telling me clearly, “It’s time to move on now.”

So, I’m grateful. This year has taught me so much. From successful daily practice to letting go with acceptance, each lesson has been learned with humility. 

Here’s to 2019!